I started a blog a while back. My vision was to do something with my idle time so I wouldn't worry about my son so much. (My son, James, is in Iraq.) The thoughts around, the planning and the writing of the blog occupied much of my time. The benefit to me was time passed and fears diminished. The awesome gift I got from the blog was hope and peace of mind.
When I started blogging I wanted to write about my fears and my relationships with family and friends. Like many in my age group I came from a fairly normal dysfunctional home. It would have been very easy for me to name the sins of all my family members but for what purpose? Some would say "to heal" and to them I say "bah". These people have partners, spouses, children, grandchildren and other family and friends. Do I need to destroy them to heal myself? I don't think so.
What I decided to do was write things that are positive about these people. My mom always said, "If you cannot say something nice, don't say anything at all." As much hurt as some of my family caused me they also blessed me with wonderful gifts. So many gifts that to name them would take me hours! Music, theater, love, discipline, laughter, the list is endless.
Today I have an appreciation for everyone who has walked my journey with me. When I cannot find anything good to say about an individual I remember the lesson from our relationship was life changing. I am very grateful for all the days of my life and even during the worst of storms, I still break for rainbows.